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JANE ADAM
Satisfaction i report with satisfaction to you my friend that the sadness and anxiousness of withdrawal continue even though i went only 48 hours without drinking and last night drank too much i report again with satisfaction that though it was not so very much (8 drinks between 6pm and midnight) it made me stupid then irrationally angry then unconscious for about an hour then headachy nauseated and sober didn’t i say that drink at least dulls and disperses my anger? well, not always— sometimes just the opposite. i say things. not the proverbial “things-i-don’t-mean” but rather things that surprise me. i have no idea whether i mean them, my friend. no idea. and so—pleased to report to you that i am depressingly sober though i am drinking again. the best of both worlds, you see: i probably couldn’t stand it if being sober actually made me feel good BIO: I started writing poetry a few years ago in a moment of emotional intensity, got decent results, and kept at it. My poems now appear in Slipstream, Nerve Cowboy, Thunder Sandwich, Spent Meat, and Remark. A 2003 Pushcart Prize nominee, I’ve taught freshman English at nearly every college in the Buffalo, NY area. |
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