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JJ CAMPBELL
but apathy keeps me alive another friday night spent at home alone watching the losers on tv talk about their friday nights spent at home alone if there ever was a good time for a suicide i think i just found it a bottle of vodka, a bullet in the chamber, a dreary afternoon with friends johnny never knew what hit him he woke up in a pool of blood sensing no one else around he assumed it was his own johnny struggled to open his eyes his left eye was not cooperating he was unsure of his surroundings, whereabouts and a thousand other things a traumatic sense of desperation filled the room as it battled a brewing stench for supremacy of the air johnny tried to move his arms and legs to no avail johnny felt a throbbing pain around the back of his head felt like his brains were slowly leaking from his skull in the distance, johnny heard a door open he hoped it was either help or someone coming to finish him off 'knowing my luck,' johnny mumbled to himself 'it'll be neither' a supernova of potential each time i have a spasm in my right eyelid i feel like it's an impending stroke and when it passes i'm not sure if i should feel glee or disappointment as neither seem quite appropriate and as i languish here in this sobering depression, moment after moment stuck in neutral, patiently waiting for the camel's back to be rendered broken i'm wasting away as comfortably as i can a supernova of potential pissed away in the neon lights of a world better left off to those that actually want it one look at the calendar and it all made sense i woke up this morning with a tremendous urge to kill or be killed it was november 22nd and i always wanted to be a kennedy J.J. Campbell (b. 1976) lives, writes and dies a little each day in Brookville, Ohio. He's been widely published in the small press, most recently in Trespass, Zygote in My Coffee, Free Verse, The Blind Man's Rainbow and Thunder Sandwich. J.J.'s most recent chapbook, "feel my disease" was published by Scintillating Publications. You can contact J.J. via email at jcampb4593@aol.com |
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